My Dying Past; the Beliefs, Religion and the God!!

Something in me now was lost, 

Was it the feeling of pain or the loss of pain?

Or my life in this darkest pungent world?

No desire to endure anything unlike a new world,

A new future, a new sun and a new life!

I am now estranged from everything I once was 

The very simple things that changed because 

The life I loved passed away from me for long 

I sat and cried for hours and still in pain!

I lost my unwritten words of freedom

There are people under the dark veils, 

In the maroon shawls, and in white cassocks

Weaponing for a redemption, killing each others

In this dying earth “in the name of Gods”!

Bright pure white blossoms are reddened with blood

Are raped in Temples, Madrasas and Altars

Blackened the future with sentience of sins

Hurt me so much, I lost myself, my false belief of truths!

I’ll never return to where my little girls raped to death,

Never kneel on the pew where my sisters were killed and 

Not once ever think of the one who forgive

The slaughtering sows who massacred millions.

I lost in my past, with my beliefs of darkness

For years of false hopes and shadowing divines.   

Something in me now was lost, 

Was it the feeling of pain or the loss of pain?

Or my life in this darkest pungent world?

No desire to endure anything unlike a new world,

A new future, a new sun and a new life!